Monday, October 20, 2008

There are no surprises in Heaven

Friday my sweet called, and asked me to lunch...he does that often, and because I have a built in sitter that is ready and willing (thank you Kartwright), I can most often say "yes". He caught me off guard...I was buried under clutter, and 4th grade math, and laundry and life, because life does not stop for tragedy, but keeps moving forward in spite of our feelings....my hubbies low smooth voice pushed it all aside, and I threw on some lipstick, and set up the girls at the computer to review their Latin and grammar, kisses all around, and I flew. Flew to the one I love, to drown my sorrows in a shared piece of red velvet cake. I am so thankful for a man that cares so much for me.

It has been a particularly hard week...lots of light hearted laughs, because one of the chicks has returned to the coop for fall break, but all is not well.

Just two weeks ago It was my pleasure to discover that there was a new life growing inside of me. I was over joyed at the privilege that was ours to parent another. I was so happy that God would grant such a blessing, even as I was still mourning the loss of sweet Crockett. I was so honored that he would entrust one more to our care. I was a bit afraid, I will admit, as we all know I am not getting any younger, but I was granted a full measure of peace, that God was the inventor of life, and that he would sustain me.

It was not to be however, and God chose to take the new life at just 81/2 weeks.

The bible tells us that we do not know the ways of God, and it could not be more right. I do not understand why it had to be this way, at this time......but, I do know, and am comforted by the fact, that my God is in control. Recently I heard a quote spoken once by Corrie Tenboom, she said


"There are no surprises in heaven, only plans"

God knew of this life before the beginning of time, and he knew the purpose that the life would have, to further his kingdom. It is not my job to question, only to be the vessel of his message.

So there it is my friends, a snip of goodness, swept away to be seen only in glory, but an instrument to be used to make us into the children our Father envisions us to be.

pray for us, and we for thee


10 comments:

Ginger said...

I am so sorry, Amy. Hang on to what you know.

thehomespunheart said...

Oh, Amy - I am just so so sorry to hear this - I wish I could pop through the screen and give you a big big teary hug. I'm jealous that Crockett has met the one we won't get to. Thinking of you - my friend.
Monica

sweston said...

Praying for you...
Love
Summer

Dawn said...

Oh Amy...words simply can not express the sorrow this brings me. I am just so sorry to hear this.
All our love to you and Mike...if only my arms could reach your neck.
Much love dear friend,
Dawn

Jeremy Martin said...

We're so sorry to hear of your loss. Annie and I are keeping you guys in our prayers. Your blog is an amazing testimony of God's grace in the midst of difficult times. It's hard to know how to extend comfort in times like this, but I hope you'll be encouraged in knowing that you're an encouragement to the rest of us.

Anonymous said...

Amy, I was so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for you.

Love,
Heather

Angie said...

Hi Sister! I woke up last night thinking of you and how much you must miss Crockett - now more loss - I am so sorry! I am hurting for you and asking God to comfort you like no person can! Your blog encouraged me as we wait on our Father's plan! Love you! --angie

Chrissie said...

Thank you for your beautiful words and your honesty.
I will pray for you and your family.
Lots of love to you.

char said...

Amy - I am so sorry. I love you. char

Anonymous said...

Very sorry for your loss -- but Heaven's gain. May you be very aware of God's peace and grace that are more than sufficient!
Blessings to you and your family from a sister in Christ